Unfortunate
It really is annoying and unfortunate that my headache haven't got any better. This morning I woke up at 6 AM as usual, the only difference were the unbearable headache of mine, I honestly couldn't make myself get up from the bed nor even open up my eyes. So I decided to skip Swedish class by sleeping in and go to the ballet class instead. One more hour of sleep did a lot, my headache were bearable again (a bit like last night) and I went to school. However once I get there my headache started to be unbearable...again. So instead of attending ballet class and do a horrible class I thought it would be better if I went home and get some piece and quit.
So what's really unfortunate is not the fact that I have a headache. It is the fact that I'm going to miss the first pas de deux class for the semester. I have really been looking forward to it, and I'm going to miss it just because of a headache...?! Ugh this really piss me off, just think of it. Would it be worth missing a training just because you have a headache, it sounds awkward doesn't it? However it can cause your concentration ability during the class. But still...
This Nutcracker Grand pas de deux is so beautiful. You really wish you could look that graceful sometimes...well actually all the time. ^^
Another thing that is also kind of unfortunate is the fact that I have been taken for granted for such a long time. And I don't know if I'm up for that anymore, it is pretty tiring that people always think that I will have a solution for everything, and when I don't I will automatically be the bad girl. However it is not that they are saying that right upon my face, but you can tell. Especially me, I have for a very long time observed us people and our reactions around other people. And with that I kind of am a "person-teller", still with me? :S Anyways, back to track. So yes I do see when people think I have done something insufficiently. The question is if I have the energy to keep this role I never asked for. To be the girl who knows pretty much everything that happens around us; to be the one who everyone can come to when they want to know our time schedules for school and home work etc.
Now don't get me wrong, it is not that I don't want to help my friends out. It is just that I don't even feel that they are the tiniest grateful.
Since I'm a Buddhist (not a super religious though)I'm trying to not think about it too much. And I'm trying to help everyone as much as I can. But everyone of us have our up- and downs regarding our kindness. I believe that as long as I deep inside am truthfully glad to help my friends, my life will in the end turn out pretty good. Karma ni vet.
Michelle ♥
So what's really unfortunate is not the fact that I have a headache. It is the fact that I'm going to miss the first pas de deux class for the semester. I have really been looking forward to it, and I'm going to miss it just because of a headache...?! Ugh this really piss me off, just think of it. Would it be worth missing a training just because you have a headache, it sounds awkward doesn't it? However it can cause your concentration ability during the class. But still...
This Nutcracker Grand pas de deux is so beautiful. You really wish you could look that graceful sometimes...well actually all the time. ^^
Another thing that is also kind of unfortunate is the fact that I have been taken for granted for such a long time. And I don't know if I'm up for that anymore, it is pretty tiring that people always think that I will have a solution for everything, and when I don't I will automatically be the bad girl. However it is not that they are saying that right upon my face, but you can tell. Especially me, I have for a very long time observed us people and our reactions around other people. And with that I kind of am a "person-teller", still with me? :S Anyways, back to track. So yes I do see when people think I have done something insufficiently. The question is if I have the energy to keep this role I never asked for. To be the girl who knows pretty much everything that happens around us; to be the one who everyone can come to when they want to know our time schedules for school and home work etc.
Now don't get me wrong, it is not that I don't want to help my friends out. It is just that I don't even feel that they are the tiniest grateful.
Since I'm a Buddhist (not a super religious though)I'm trying to not think about it too much. And I'm trying to help everyone as much as I can. But everyone of us have our up- and downs regarding our kindness. I believe that as long as I deep inside am truthfully glad to help my friends, my life will in the end turn out pretty good. Karma ni vet.
Michelle ♥
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